New accesory...

Michael was doing better, he was walking and his scar was healing. The oncologist was ready to release him, but his gallbladder was still causing him pain. So he talked to the surgeon, something had to be done. The surgeon came in and asked Michael how is pain was if the antibiotics had done anything to help him.. He said that it didn't, it helped and minimized the pain but that was about it. His pain was still constant. So the surgeon had a plan, he was going to insert a drain to alleviate the pain. A drain? Michael asked  Yes the surgeon replied. The way it works I will insert the drain inside your gallbladder , it will drain all of the fluid from the sack therefore it will alleviate the pain.

So having stones in there wont matter? I asked. No he replied what causes the pain is all the fluid built up, it pushes on the gallbladder and in return the gallbladder pushes on the tumor. So I think this will help you. You will be able to have chemotherapy without worry of the pain. I can remove it at anytime as well. Its not a big deal, we are just trying to make you comfortable enough to handle chemo. This procedure will only take fifteen minutes, no recovery time. So I can do it today and see how you do, and hopefully I release you tomorrow.

Wow.. things where moving alright. Michael wasn't so happy with this new addition to his body. But again he really didn't have a say. He wanted to be pain free. That same day his procedure was done. He came back to the room and he was out. I looked at it, examined it. Because you know me, I would have to take care of it so might as well learn it and see it. He woke up with some pain, from the stiches around the drain. He looked at me , I don't like this he said. Look at me how am I supposed to feel normal like this? I have a damn bag hanging from the stomach and now this shit, a drain hanging off of me.

But its going to help you I said. Its bullshit he replied, maybe so I said but no one here is wanting to cause you pain Michael we are all here to help you. Sure he said, but none of you understand what I am going through. I'm trying I said, but no you are right I don't.  I felt like I could never to anything right, I was trying he wasn't happy.

The drain was working great that same hour he was back he had the bag drained a few times it was full. The pain got so much better. He was taking his pain medication less often.  I prayed every night , I cried every night. I hardly slept so many things running through my mind. God I asked please just no more, no more pain for him, no more hospital visit, please give him strength to handle what is coming.